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Thursday, January 27th, 2005
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Thursday,
January 27th, 2005
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Thursday,
January 27th, 2005
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| Wednesday, January 26th, 2005
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Wednesday,
January 26th, 2005
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i feel like an insenitive bitch
john fedele's mom died
i met her too, at forenzics in 8th grade. she was very nice. its like when ashli's dad died. i didnt know him that well, and then that one april morning, he died. ashli says that at least he got to see the sunshine that day. i hope mrs. fedele saw the sunshine, so that she can rest peacefully, knowing that the world is not a cold, cruel place. but for the rest of us, it is.
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of which has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated
[Chorus]
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that
[Chorus]
So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away [3x]
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away [4x]
[Chorus]
Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...
sometimes its hard to understand, but there is a reason for everything.
i feel guilty for not trying harder to get along with john. i hope he understands.
rip amf
current mood:  crushed
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2 understand what its like to be me | try to understand
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| Tuesday, January 25th, 2005
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Tuesday,
January 25th, 2005
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uh-oh... frances has a master plan and i'm scared out of my socks....
and kate, josh and andy are in on it. who knows what could happen next...
so im sitting here in the computer lab, minding my own business, and this girl walks behind me and she stops. and she's reading my lj. i'm like, freaking get away before i castrate you, and thats not physically possible because you are a girl. moving on...
kate said that my feelings are easily read, like i wear my heart on my sleeve or something. i do!!? ahhh, there goes my life. maybe i do... i cant tell, i cant see my face! so next time you see me being very obvious, tell me cuz i dont want to be like a projection or something. i guess b*** already knew that i liked him cuz he could tell. good thing i dont like him anymore...
last night, it was really gross, cuz i took a shower, and i cut myself with Mrs. Venus. it didn't hurt, but it wouldn't stop bleeding!!!! there was blood everywhere!!!! i thought i was going to pass out, partly because i was so grossed out, and partly because i thought that i had lost approximately 50% of my blood. ewewewewewwwww......
ok, i promise i will not tell another story like that. completely inappropriate. arg! i am so random. go read frances' lj, i'm sure that there is something substatial on it. i am now going to go make faces in the mirror and see if i can tell how i feel. omg, that does not make any sense. beaucoup de confusion. 'scuzez-moi?
<3<3
current mood:  nerdy
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4 understand what its like to be me | try to understand
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| Sunday, January 23rd, 2005
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Sunday,
January 23rd, 2005
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i know, im suppost to be researching. whats an add girl suppost to do?
mes parentes are having a eucre party (you wondered why i was such a loser - i get it from them) so all are invited to come over next saturday night. call me to tell me thogh... no pleasant suprises.
<3<3
current mood: dorky
current music: sugarcult - stuck in america
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try to understand
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| Friday, January 21st, 2005
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Friday,
January 21st, 2005
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Friday,
January 21st, 2005 - i figured out some stuff...
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about the whole b*** thing...
i figured out that it was not b*** that i like, but its very complicated, so go with me here...
i liked the idea or concept of having a boyfriend, not b*** specifically. in my mind, i created this person, made up of all of my experiences with guys and traits of guys that i like, and my mind put b***'s face on this created person. so i was passionately in love with "b***", but it was not necessarily. i was actually being kind of unfair to him - i was inventing traits for him that he might not have. i created a new b*** with these ideas, and he might not actually live up to these expectations in reality. basically, i created a mr. right, and i put him in the form of b***. my mind is insane!!!
i feel a bit like my life is out of control, especially at home. its really a good thing that i have friends, because right now, my life is like a giant tsunamiand my friennds are like the giant rock that i am holding on to for dear life. what a coincidental analogy...
ummun was crazy fun... the hotel on saturday... no words...
cant wait for naimun... like brigitte said, whoever put me, brigitte and jane together in a room was clearly insane. and i love them for it.
this sounds dumb, but today is accept-it-all day: comment and tell me what color rock you are being for me: red = passionate strength; orange = resourseful and supportive; yellow = comic relief; green = fresh perspective; blue = soothing and comforting; purple = deep thoughts and words. i know, but just do it. for me.
laters~
<3anna
current mood:  i think too much again!
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5 understand what its like to be me | try to understand
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| Tuesday, January 18th, 2005
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Tuesday,
January 18th, 2005
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| Wednesday, January 12th, 2005
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Wednesday,
January 12th, 2005 - ooh this is funny... i got the quiz from colleen my love
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You Are Aurora! (A.K.A. Sleeping Beauty.)
 Thoughtful and loving. Authority figures probably have been sheltering you all of your life. Thankfully you're a very tranquil person who is content with what life has given you, but secretly you want to know how the outside world works. Which Disney Princess Are You?
please allow me to highlight, "Authority figures probably have been sheltering you all of your life." good gawd, i dont have cable. ShElTeReD is an UnDeRsTaTeMeNt
but i have to laugh... a tranquil person? hahahahah
who is content with what life has given me? hahahaha
comment and tell me if you are content with what life has given you. what would you change? what would you never change? just curious...
love and candy,
<3anna
current mood: i think too much
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| Tuesday, January 11th, 2005
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Tuesday,
January 11th, 2005 - babysitting...
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oh i love kittens... the people that i am babysitting right now just got a new kitten and his name is cooper and he is PRECIOUS!!!! ohh, he loves necklaces and curly hair and other such play items... the hair is becoming a problem. i fell bad though cuz their golden retriever is gonna die of cancer in a few weeks... :(
math final was today - it was okay, not too hard
i have icons!!! excitement...
i was talking to lindsey today because i love her and we were talking about B***. you know the song "beautiful soul" by jesse mccartney? obviously. well, i've heard it like ten thousand times, but for some reason, i heard it last night and i started bawling. it was patetic. and it is because of him. because i've lked him too long, i've waited too long... i need to move on, but i can't. i want to, but you cant just tell your heart to stop loving someone. oy vei.
enough deep shit.
you are encouraged to visit my brand new greatest journal: beautifulsoulx
(i know, youre like, um, she obseesed with that song? the answer is yes)
comment and explain how to stop liking someone. as always, you are loved and appreciated.
<3anna
current mood:  calm
current music: why is love so hard to find - j.m. (how convenient)
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6 understand what its like to be me | try to understand
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| Monday, January 10th, 2005
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Monday,
January 10th, 2005 - ooh icons!! what joy and happiness....
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ooh yess, i have icons... i hope you all enjoyed the link from last updade... much fun.
finals are tomorrow, the next day, the next day, and the next day after that, and if you can figure out what days those are, you are my hero.
so, why don't you comment and tell me when your finals are/were, please fell free to express your feelings about having exams at all... you are loved and appreciated.
~anna~
current mood:  hungry
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4 understand what its like to be me | try to understand
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| Friday, January 7th, 2005
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Friday,
January 7th, 2005
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| Friday, December 31st, 2004
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Friday,
December 31st, 2004 - LeTs MiX iT uP a BiT...
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lets be a bit emo momentarily, k?
my birthday was shit yesterday... we didnt do a damn thing...
i am single
ok, enough emo
lets make 2005 a good one.... see yall later...
~ <3 anna ~
current mood:  minimal excitement about 2005
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10 understand what its like to be me | try to understand
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| Thursday, December 30th, 2004
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Thursday,
December 30th, 2004 - today is my birthday!!!!! yippideedoodaaa!!!!
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not much to say, but let's update for the hell of it. the party at lindsey's was very fun, except that my retarded fajah pics me up too early. and its a good thing that brad doesnt read lj's, cuz i am sick of waiting for that kid. i have liked him for four years. draw your own conclusions.
enough sadness... must look for polar express tickets.
much love to all....
<3<3 anna
current mood: not really sure....
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9 understand what its like to be me | try to understand
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| Monday, December 20th, 2004
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Monday,
December 20th, 2004
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hello you...
that last entry was fairly obnoxious... my apologies, my dears, won't happen again (anytime soon). so this weekend we went skiing and it was pretty nice on sat but on sun it was like, -7 out there with a goddamn wind and my sister and brother both got frostbite.... hahaha my sister got it on her nose so now she's going to be more deformed that before...... i am evil.
so now we get to CLEAN and SCRUB that filthy new house down. yikes. and volunteers to help? i didnt think so. so thats life. except,,,,,,
i should probably advertize the HUGE party that lovely lindsey waggsie is havving for me, her and geoff, at her house, on dec 28, so please come!!!! major fun stuff happening there!!!! birthday happiness and joy + loving friends and peoples + mountain dew = more fun than you will ever have. this is the official invite. so come on over, come on over baby.....
<333 anna
(ps i am very terrified because in a few short hours i will be auditioning for the play!!! ::teeth chatter, knees knock, etc...::)
current mood:  anxious
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4 understand what its like to be me | try to understand
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| Friday, December 17th, 2004
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Friday,
December 17th, 2004 - YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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WERE FINALLY MOVING!!!!!!!!!! I'M SO EXCITED!!!!!!! CAN YOU TELL BY THE CAPS LOCK ENTRY???????? OR THE EXCESSIVE PUNCTIATIONS????????? GOOD!!!!!! MAYBE YOU UNDERSTAND HOW EXCITED I AM!!!!!!! ::EXCITED DANCING AROUND ROOM:: BUT WAIT, THERE'S MORE..... WE ARE GOING SKIING THIS WEEKEND AND MY GRANDMA IS NOT GOING WITH!!!!!!!!! HER NEW HAIRCUT MAKES HER HEAD LOOK LIKE A SQUARE!!!!!!!!!!! I'M SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
<3 ANNA
current mood:  SO FREAKING EXCITED!!!!!!
current music: I AM SINGING A HAPPY TUNE
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4 understand what its like to be me | try to understand
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| Saturday, December 11th, 2004
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Saturday,
December 11th, 2004 - christmas dance last night!!!!
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much fun at the christmas dance last night... i missed all my abbott ppl, though... my first dance without any of you guys there... still fun though! we move in about 1 week... so exciting. when i move, i'm gonna have a party so that all you guys can move our boxes and hang out and basically have a dandy old time... prettty much, that's my life. laters!
<3 anna
current mood:  sleepy
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| Friday, December 10th, 2004
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Friday,
December 10th, 2004
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hey y'all,
you like the new background/text/new stuff? only problem is, there are no scrollbars. yeah, i know, but all you have to do is highlight the text, move that mouse down to the bottom of your screen, and it should scroll. in the meantime, i have to fix that problemo. me and lindsey hung out on wednesday, mucho fun there. i mean, come on, if you have me, lindsey, break and bake cookies, and hannuka sprinkles, there's bound to be a party! after lindsey's i went to the pistons game, and they won in overtime!!! i felt kinda bad cuz we only had four tickets and my little bro wanted to go, but i went instead, and i dont even really know that muc about basketball. i can tell you, however, that there were several hot guys there, and a guy who strongly resembled jesse mccarthy... ironic (lindsey)
comment and tell me how your life has been lately, i want to know...
<3<3<3<3<3<3 anna
current mood: excited - x-mas dance tonight!
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4 understand what its like to be me | try to understand
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| Monday, November 29th, 2004
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Monday,
November 29th, 2004 - mmkay, i put this on my live journal six months ago, and nobody commented. suprise me, people.
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1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about
you?
i love snow.
i hate rain that melts snow.
i hate rain.
i love you so much, i don't think you understand.
<3 anna
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Monday,
November 29th, 2004
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hey ya'll,
thanksgiving was not that great, but we went shopping on friday! yay!!!! we were in jc penny's by 6:45 that morning, and i was only surviving on the coffee in my giant travel mug. and i know that rave is cheap, but they had 5 dollar shoes - i couldn't resist.... anyways, we are moving the week of the 19th.... so excited!!! comment and tell me what color/style/theme i should make my room. thanks a bunch. oo, and what color makes you think of me? that's a good idea.
i love you, you are an amazing friend.
<3 anna
current mood:  flirty
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